Oracle of Shadows and Light (Blue Angel, 2010). I meditated with this card and learnt a lot about fear. I had somehow not realised just how afraid of change I am at the moment, but path working and meeting the Witch at the End of the World, I was able to hear by proxy my own terrors.
Although she sits in a bleak landscape, with a storm crashing around her and a timer in her hand, she told me she'd rather be there than face the change that would come when the sands ran out. In this, I can acknowledge my own fear of the unknown. Things in life aren't great, but I realise that I fear they could easily get worse rather than better.
In the guidebook, Lucy Cavendish states that change is coming, but all will be well. I'm not sure I really believe that. Life isn't always happy, and though I agree that ultimately we come to see the learning potential in all that we face, that doesn't necessarily mean that all is well. Or maybe it's the fact that, at the end of the day, whatever happens we must accept and find the good in it one way or another. Still, while we can cling to what is, we often do!
It made me wonder, what would help me to move forward with grace, rather than being pulled into new situations kicking and screaming? Perhaps one answer lies in the guidebook: the belief that change will be for the good. It's a tough one, though. After all, in yoga they also talk about releasing attachment, and that includes attachment to situations and habits just as much as to material possessions, so it's not a new issue :)
Hopefully, just realising how much fear there is in me is already a first step in dealing with it...