1) Who am I? - XVI - The Tower
Well, this card certainly struck home. I have been tracking the cards I get for several years now, and the Tower is the Major that comes up most for me, bar none! So I guess it's no surprise to see it here.
Still, I love this depiction from the Tarot of the Sidhe. I am someone who needs to break out of rigid ideas, to be freed from structures that constrict me, even if they are of my own making. What feels like destruction will actually lift me up, though it may well feel scary and dark in the process. I am someone who has to face these shake-ups, these challenges: it is part of what I have chosen as my lesson for this life.
Somehow, that feels kind of reassuring: that these earth-shattering events are what I need to learn and grow, no matter how hard they are at the time.
2)What is my task? - Maker King - Gift of Skill
My task in this life is to learn, to develop skills, and to put them into practice. I see this being connected with the first card: I need to learn to become stronger and to be able to not just weather the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, but to create something from them. I also see it in terms of using those shake-ups to find new inspiration, to get up, dust myself off, and make something of life.
Out of destruction comes inspiration and beauty. Or as Pablo Picasso put it: "Every act of creation is first an act of destruction."
3) What higher truth guides me? - Maker Prince - Gift of Connection
I just love this card! I had it on my altar for quite a while, and included it in a video I did on Herne :)
What this card says to me is that it is through connection that we find wisdom. Connection with nature, first and foremost - honouring the trees and animals, the plants and landscapes of the natural world.
Connection, too, with other humans. Whether through real life interactions or online, we are shaped by the people we relate to in any way. Tierney Sadler recently wrote a great post about how even the a**eholes in our lives shape us, and it's true of every being that touches us in any way.
4) What deep energy powers me? - Maker Queen - Gift of Healing
Isn't she wonderful? I see her three ways. Firstly, she represents the Goddess in her infinite, giving, loving, healing aspect. She is the source of all love, all connection, and of nature.
Secondly, she represents my own ancestors and my mother, who have always been an inspiration to me. My maternal grandmother was a beautiful singer at a time when women of her social group didn't do things like sing in public. She pushed the boundaries, and though she eventually married a nice man her mother approved of, she always kept that joy in life, and that faith in herself. My grandmother was a doctor, when that still wasn't very usual for a woman. After she retired, she went to schools to educate kids about sex ;) My mother raised me as a single mum, and always told me I could do what I put my mind to, and said that if I didn't agree with her, if I could argue my case she would always listen - and she does!
Finally, I see her as myself, as a mother, as a loving woman who nurtures others and herself. That feeling of connection we saw in the Maker Prince here has been taken in, and now she offers it up to the world.
5) Where do I come from? - Warrior Seven - A Hero's Challenge
There is a part of me that feels like I have to battle all comers, face any challenge. And given I am the Tower, there is honestly a part of that which is true.
I see this as being someone who is willing to stand up for what they believe in, to fight for what they want, for themselves and for others.
So, I come from a place of believing in my strength, and being willing to use it. For that, once again, I thank my ancestors and the deep energy they lend me.
6) What will I discover when I leave this form? - Maker Eight - Emergence
Oh, wow! When I leave this form I will discover that it was only the physical manifestation of my spirit. Moving on, I will have the potential to grow and become far more. More alive, more expansive, stronger. Perhaps also more vulnerable - the tree can be harmed far more by the things around it than can the acorn, yet it brings so many other benefits. And perhaps being able to be vulnerable is, itself, a good thing.
7) Who is my hidden self? - XXI - The World
This card stayed hidden until the end of the reading, facedown. I was quite stunned when I turned it over. As if there hadn't been enough power to this reading already!
My hidden self is whole, complete. She already is that tree we see emerging in the Maker Eight card. I am connected to the universe, I grow in the light of the sun and the energy of the stars. Though I may fear I can't cope, though I may worry and doubt, under it all I am already perfect, with all my faults.
What a beautiful reading :) I really encourage you all to give it a try - very powerful stuff!