Friday, 15 February 2013

Commitment

This morning, in the early hours, I was awake and decided to meditate for a little.  I asked for a focus, and shuffled my Mystical Lenormand (AGM/Urania, 2004).  Three cards jumped out, and I felt drawn to use them, but hesitated about the order to put them in.  Finally, I just plonked them down, thinking I would wait and see.  So, with these cards, I ended up reading them as a central focus and mirroring the side cards, rather than my more traditional 2+1⇾3.

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At the centre, then, is the Ring, symbolic of commitment.  And the mirroring cards are Clouds and Mice.  I read this as saying that to reduce uncertainty, I need to commit.  It reminds me of a post earlier this week by Tierney Sadler (combining tarot and lenormand, coincidentally).  She talked about the importance of making a commitment and sticking to it, in breaking habits we don't want.

This feels very relevant to me at the moment.  I've gotten into some bad eating habits of late.  Now, my excuse for them is gone, and I've been feeling fat and guilty.  I'm just feeling generally quite bad about myself, actually, though I know most of that is emotional stuff.  Still, at least with the poor eating and the weight gain (only 2 kilos, but it bothers me) there is something I can do.

So, I commit to going back to doing daylight fasts on a weekly basis.  My DH has been doing a weekly fast (more hardcore, from dinner one night to breakfast the day after next) for about five months now, and he is in the best shape he's been in for twenty years!  I feel old and ugly in comparison, and that's not a good place to be.  At least this I can do something about!

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  1. Your husband is amazing, I tried a fast yesterday and by 5.00 I was inhaling tortilla chips.

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    1. Late afternoon is the hardest time for most people. One suggestion is to have something warm to drink, it gives a greater sense of satiety than anything else, without being high calorie.

      I'm sipping a lemon and ginger tea with a little manuka honey right now - yeah, our son has given us his cold :( Still, fasting is supposed to improve the immune system, too. So, two birds...

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    2. Yes, I'm sure it goes well with a loaded veggie burger. LOL Just kidding. I've designated Mondays and Thursdays, so trying again on Monday. :)

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    3. Good luck on Monday, then! I did the daylight fast today, but won't do another for at least ten days, as first we're on holiday and then I'm on a business trip - neither of which is conducive to being snappy and hungry! :o

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  2. I love that you're focusing on taking care of yourself and examining habits. This is something I need to do! I assure you that you're NOT old and fat. Ahh!!! Anyway. I want to send you lots of love and high-fives for your self-care.

    XO,
    MM

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    1. Hiya MM,

      Good luck with your own habit examination. I feel like I've been really bad over the holidays, but then they don't last long, and at least I'm aware of it... As for being old, I am in my 40's now! Sometimes, that feels ancient ;)

      XOXO,
      K

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