Yesterday, I finally finished Deva Premal and Miten's 21 day mantra meditation journey, which has been a beautiful experience. So, today I started my 21 days with Om Shree Dhanvantre Namaha - a mantra for healing. I remember them saying in the introduction to this mantra that it is for all kinds of healing, not just the physical. And boy, do I feel we are in need of that! Both me personally, on a more emotional level, and my son in particular on a physical level. To be honest, I think my DH could do with it, too, though he brazens it out more. It's been a tough year.
Anyway, while chanting this morning and trying to focus on the healing we all need, I started crying. Which may of course be part of my own healing - expressing the pain, frustration and sadness I feel right now. With all that, I ended up doing two rounds of my mala beads - 216 repetitions. I felt lighter at the end of it, though I'm not sure I'd want to blub every day. We'll see how it goes tomorrow...
Done with my weeping, but still feeling in need of some angelic guidance, I decided to use a traditional Lenormand approach. So, I shuffled and looked for the Angel card in the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) to find out what the angels suggest to me this week.
Ring, Sun, Angel, Letter, Snake: the angels advise an energetic commitment to transformative writing.
Although I'm involved in a spiritual writing project, I associate that more with the Book. Rather, what I see here is this blog. After all, it is here that I feel I can write most anything I like. It's funny, because several times I've thought about chucking this blog in: I spend time on it that I could spend on said writing project; it doesn't further my professional image; and I've only had a couple of reading requests through it. But perhaps that's why I most need to keep it: it's just for me, rather than for anything official/work-related. Here, I can write about my more negative thoughts, and blog any way I like, not worrying about whether I'm being consistent or putting on a good show.
So, although it may not be a worthwhile pursuit, nor make any money, nor help anyone else particularly, I shall keep writing here. I hope some of you will enjoy the card readings, or the discussion of meditation practices, or whatever else.