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This morning, I just chanted 108 rounds to Dhanvantari.  Partly because I didn't have much time, and the chant to Tara takes longer, and partly because after yesterday's news about my son needing two surgeries, we could all do with as much healing as possible.

I also decided to draw three cards to look at a focus for today, with the intention that I receive a message about both a spiritual and a more mundane focus.  However, when I opened my eyes I saw I'd actually drawn doubles in two positions, so I ended up with a line of five.  Here they are from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004):

Dog, Rider, Snake, Man, Fish.

At a mundane level, I see that there is a message from a friend that requires me to keep strong boundaries and stay very rational when taking part in exchanges.  That's all about my ex and our current email exchange.  Just as background, we still work together, kind of.  In different branches of the same company, so sometimes we have to meet to talk business.  And I do still think he's a fascinating person, just so glad I'm not with him any more.  Anyhow...  So, stay clear and rational, watch out for emotions, and keep exchanges business-like, sounds like good advice.

At a more spiritual level, I see that there are messages from a friend (the deck), about how to let go (shedding something we've outgrown is a meaning of the Snake given by both Fiechter and Jösten) of a man, and go with the flow of life now.  Okay, so that's still about my ex, lol.  Seriously, though, I think it's more far-reaching than that.  I've been noticing over the last few days the way in which some of my responses, both to the friends who asked for an investment and to my ex, are conditioned.  That I have an old tape that says I must be loyal and take responsibility for others.  And that's just not true.  These are grown-ups, they can take care of themselves.  So, I have to let go of that tape, let go of that responsibility, so that I can learn to swim in the river I'm in now.