Friday, 12 July 2013

It's Good To Talk

Both yesterday and today, I chanted a full mala of Om mani padme om with my rose quartz beads.  I have also rearranged my altar a bit, adding in cards for Yamuna Devi, Goddess of Purification, and the Buddha, Lord of Compassion.  This morning, I started out feeling quite emotional (see below), but ended feeling quite relaxed.  Purifying my mind and seeking compassion seems a good place for me right now :)

After the unpleasantness yesterday, I did a nine square reading, which I won't post because it was long, complicated, and a bit too revealing.  Interestingly, though, two of the same cards appeared in this morning's three card draw - Moon, Birds, Clover - shown here from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).


Seems that talking about my emotions will bring a little happiness back into my life :)  I already talked a bit with my DH about it, which helped.  I think this comes back to what I mentioned a couple of weeks ago - my sense of responsibility and loyalty to others.  This person who expects something from me that I can't deliver didn't really put me on the spot.  It was my own feelings that did that.

This ties in, as well, with my new moon reading, which I was reminded of when I sat to meditate, as the cards are still out on my altar.  I really do need to let go of these old emotions, and be willing to explore where I am emotionally now, and where I want to be.  Yes, I want to be loyal and responsible, but not at any price.  I need to be clear about where my boundaries are, and not let myself be pushed beyond them by my own feelings of guilt.  If I can be clearer, and more boundaried, then I am less likely to end up comfort eating!

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  1. Oh...I am really sorry for your especially stressful week. Mercury retrograde is both good for clearing up misunderstandings and also rife for misunderstandings themselves. You have a lot on your mind and need extra calm and hugs. Hoping your weekend is rejuvenating.

    XOX,
    MM

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    1. Hi MM,

      Maybe I'm just being an over-emotional wuss about all this :) Anyhow, hopefully I'll be able to relax a bit this weekend, and talk things over with my DH some more...

      Wishing you a beautiful weekend,
      K

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    2. Nah...I don't think you're an overemotional wuss. Well, if so we're both wusses, so we should just go with it. Haha! Emotions are intense, cathartic doorways that can really help us if we can stand the pain. It takes a strong person to navigate them--so I wish you luck.

      XOX...
      MM

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    3. Yay, wusses together ;) Not sure about catharsis. Some people argue that sinking into your emotions just makes them stronger, rather than clearing them out. I'm still undecided on that.

      Good luck to us both!

      XOXO,
      Kerry

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  2. Beautiful altar; I love that orange cloth!!!

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    1. Thanks :) It's actually a scarf that my mother gifted me. Don't think I've ever worn it (I'm not much of a scarf person). Still, it's a gorgeous colour, isn't it?

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  3. Sorry you're feeling stressed. I agree with MM about Mercury retrograde!

    Love your altar. I should think about replacing my altar with a tea tray, I like the larger surface area. :)

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    1. And it's pretty easy to move around or store out of the way, too :)

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