Friday 5th July
For no reason I can fathom, today I felt moved to chant Om Mani Padme Hum, instead of chanting to Dhanvantari or Tara. I shall just wait and see how I feel tomorrow, as I have completed my sadhana, so there’s no reason I can’t change chants.
Drawing three cards from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) to look at my day, I pulled House, Coffin, Dog. Here they are from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).
My first reading was that I am leaving home to be with a friend - quite true, but not something that is news to me in any way. Still, I guess it emphasises what it means to me to leave home: leaving behind my son’s constant ill health, but also leaving behind my comfort zone. And the Dog says not only that I’ll be meeting up with a friend soon, but also talks of my loyalty to my family. Just because my time with them has ended for today (in fact, I won’t see them again til Sunday), doesn’t mean they’ll be any less in my thoughts. In fact, the combination could also be read as being homesick due to loyal emotions :)
However, I am determined to make the most of my time away, to be my own best friend and take this break as time to relax, unwind, and enjoy being with a friend doing different things to my regular life...
Saturday 6th July
Unusual day, I chanted Om Shanti following a friend’s lead, as we sat together under some trees. After the Om Shanti, I did a silent half mala of Om Tare Tuttare Ture Svaha in my head.
My cards for the day were: Birds, Mice, Anchor, shown here from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).
My first reading of them was, wisdom is reduced by staying in one place, ie. Get your a**e out of the bedroom and get going. Later, I also saw it saying that anxiety is reduced by connecting with the land - so sitting under a tree to meditate and chant in unison was just perfect :)
Sunday 7th July
I chanted silently on the train home, back to half a mala to Dhanvantari, half a mala to Tara.
Drawing three cards, I pulled Clover, Child and Paths, shown here from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).
What I saw in this was a childlike happiness about my choices. Overall, the choices I made today were about very simple things - walk or catch the bus, eat carrots or bread, sit on the ground or on a bench. There was something very restful about that ;D
I also got a reading from my friend, Eowyn, from Cherlindrea’s Grove, asking how to avoid worrying about something that’s on my mind. She drew Death, the Hierophant and the Moon, for what to do, what not to do, and the potential outcome. So, I need to let go of worries based on similar situations in the past, or slay my demons. I mustn’t get too rigid in my thinking about this, nor rely too much on “institutional wisdom”. And the outcome is still unclear, so there’s no point worrying about it. Plus, if it’s still unclear, it could still be positive, as Eowyn pointed out. Now, how to let go of fears based on my previous experiences, that’s my next question, I guess...