Last night was the New Moon, and so, as is my practice, I drew two cards from Emily Carding's Tarot of the Sidhe (Schiffer, 2011) to look at what I need to release and what I need to embrace over the coming lunation. My answer was that I need to release the Tower, and embrace the Empress!
It's funny, this is actually my favourite Tower card ever, one of the few I'm not sad to see! I love the image of a woman breaking out of a pretty-but-rigid outer self, finding herself somewhat vulnerable, but also strong and able to fly under it all. Yet, juxtaposed with the Empress, what I see is that I need to let go of having to be strong, and allow myself to be nurtured. There is something there, too, about letting go of having to deal with things that feel shattering, and finding time for creativity.
This makes a lot of sense to me. It's been quite a tough few weeks, between hospital appointments for my son and deadlines for work. Hopefully, over the next four weeks I can take things a bit easier, and focus more on enjoying my time with my son, and feeling creative rather than stressed.
In terms of action points, what I get for this month are the following suggestions:
✓ Be nurturing of self and others.
✓ Allow creativity to flow.
✓ Release the need to be strong and do everything for yourself.
✓ Release fears of feeling broken by life's events.
✓ Focus on sensual pleasures: from smelling the flowers to walking in the woods, to cuddling loved ones.
After pulling these cards, I decided that chanting a full mala to Yemaya was appropriate. After all, she's a mother Goddess somewhat more watery than the Empress, yet still with that feel of abundance, joy and nurturing. That may have to be my chant for the month, we'll see. I think I need to go with the flow on that one, and nurture myself through my chanting and meditations however seems best day-to-day...