Friday, 9 August 2013

White Lies

Yesterday, I chanted a full mala to Yemaya.  I also rearranged my altar a little, as I wanted to use the Oracle of the Mermaids deck (Blue Angel, 2013), from which I'd taken the Yemaya card.  So, I replaced her with Isis from my favourite Goddess Oracle (Marashinsky & Janto).  However, today when I sat at the altar, seeing different goddesses on it encouraged me to change my chant.  I chanted a full mala of a sanskrit Goddess chant, where you chant the Goddess' name 12 times in varying melodies, each time followed by 'ma'.  I chose nine Goddesses to include: Isis and Tara (both on my altar); Oya, Brigid, Cerridwen and Hekate (who I call on for the quarters); Kali and Durga (for the strength to maintain boundaries); and Yemaya :)

I also drew three cards from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004), including the four extra cards published separately, but which match.

Fox, Angel, Mountain
The first thing that popped into my head was: when caught between a rock and a hard place, call on your angels.  The second thing that came to me, a more traditional Lenormand reading, was: angelic deception causes barriers.  The two go together in some ways: that rock and hard place may have been created by our own white lies.

A few weeks ago, Arwen talked about how she considers truth sacred.  My own approach is a little more flexible.  Just as I wouldn't make love to my DH in public, so there are other things that I also don't choose to share in public.  I rarely outright lie, but I do keep some things private when I can.  Just today, I was faced by this dilemma in trying to increase my social networking.  The software wouldn't let me link up my blog with my official page, only with my personal page, which I don't want to do.  This isn't just about the personal page, though, it's about how I try to keep my life compartmentalised, how I'm still in the broom closet.  And that is becoming harder and harder with the way so many sites these days want to link everything up.

What it comes down to, I guess, is that lies, even white lies like, "No, I'm not on Facebook," create barriers.  And that's not always a bad thing: sometimes I'd like a barrier between myself and someone I don't necessarily like or trust fully.  So, it's more about recognising and accepting those barriers, choosing where you want them, being aware of why they feel necessary.  And sometimes they may block me from something or someone that I would rather get closer to.  Still, that's a risk I take.

There's something there, too, about acknowledging that sometimes those barriers may fall, accidentally or on purpose, and being aware of what the consequences might be, and whether I can live with them....

6 comments:

  1. I don't interact with enough people, I guess to need to create barriers through white lies. I do sometimes lie by omission. While I have come out as pagan at work, I've never outright used the word 'witch' or 'witchcraft'.

    I'd love to read your quarter calling ritual, if you care to share it. :)

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    1. Plus I'm not on Facebook. I don't like my blogs to social networks. As far as I can, I avoid 'linking'.

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    2. I meant 'link' my blogs.

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    3. It's true, partly, that I interact with a lot of quite disparate groups, a lot of whom are really rigid and conventional. I'm sure I've told the story of one woman I work with saying she didn't 'believe' in yoga - right? Most of mine are lies of omission, and I have been known to say 'I don't connect with work contacts on Facebook', which of course is a half truth... Ah, I don't know what I'm going to do about all this stuff! I want to keep some of those barriers up, yet am doing things that could pull them down...

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  2. I'm right there with you. The internet has become very intrusive, and everywhere you go now you're being asked for your full real name and even your mobile number. (for security reasons of course. :-P)Everyone used to be happy with user names and everyone seemed to recognize the need for protecting our anonymity online. For security reasons! lol. Have we become complacent or are we relaxing in a good way? I don't know. I do know I don't want to share every detail of my life with my husband's Aunt Betty just because she is snoopy on Facebook.

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    1. Ha ha, funny how a 180º change happens, yet it's still all for 'security reasons' :) I think there is definitely a degree of complacency, and acceptance that this is just the way things are, that we give up a certain amount of privacy for the joys of the internet...

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