Since my last post, I've continued chanting the Nine Goddess chant, and I'm really enjoying it. I try to visualise each Goddess as I chant her name. And the more I do it, the easier it is to remember which order I have them in: Isis, Tara, Oya, Brigid, Cerridwen, Hekate, Kali, Durga, Yemaya. I didn't chant or meditate on Monday, as my son had a really bad night and I was exhausted. Every other day, though, it's been a lovely practice.
Today, I also decided to draw some cards to look at my worries about my son going into hospital for an operation. I asked what would help me cope, and the answer from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) was helpful. I drew three cards from a fan, and after I'd done so, one more card was out on it's own. When I scooped the cards back up, it ended up at the bottom of the deck, and I felt drawn to place it underneath the others as a final message.
What I see in this is that I have no control over whether or not his operation will go ahead - Paths undermined by Mice - and that I just need to trust that things will work out one way or another (the Key suggests success, but doesn't say when). The Stars are a message of hope, and also a reminder to stay clear, to see what I can influence and what I have to accept as being written in the stars, beyond my control. I also see the line of three talking about my worries, those invisible, undermining critters, and how I feel I should make decisions and take action. Yet, the Stars also advise that I trust in science. A different perspective, though with a similar message :)