|Coffin & Cross; Birds, Child, Tree, Ship, Clouds.|
The line talks of nervousness around the health of a child, and feelings of confusion and nostalgia. Taking the more empowering reading of these, I see the recommendation to talk about these issues, to seek wisdom on them, and so move through the confusion to a place of greater calm. The Cross as guidance suggests that a spiritual approach - prayer and meditation - will help.
Based on this reading, I decided to do a different chant during today's meditation, and stuck to a simple Om Shanti Om, praying for inner peace. I felt so connected to it that I ended up doing two malas of the chant, and then took some time in silence.
I have to say, it's a relief to finally be journalling about this here. One of the reasons I've posted a lot less the last few weeks is because most of my readings spoke to me on this subject, and as I wasn't writing about it...
It weird, I flip-flop between excitement and nerves - perfect Birds behaviour. My DH and I have started talking about it more, the last few days. He's nervous, as well, and didn't want to talk about it when it was all so 'up in the air' (his sense of it, not mine). Also, my mother has been away for several weeks, so I hope to get the chance to talk with her some more about it, now that she's back. Though I don't yet want to talk about it in larger forums - I haven't posted about it on Facebook, or anywhere else on-line but this blog - I do need to work through it and let go of my fears so I can embrace this experience, untainted by the past.