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October 31st: Today it is Samhain. A day to celebrate and remember our beloved ones who have passed away. Name somebody you want to remember and pull a card on how you want to keep his/her memory alive.
The person I want to remember is my maternal grandmother. She died on the 30th of October, so this time of year is doubly relevant - for her actual death, as well as for Samhain and the thinning of the veil. She was an amazing woman, who trained as a doctor, and who kept on serving even after she retired, teaching sexual education classes in schools to help keep teenagers safe and informed. She was strong and loving, she baked wonderful biscuits, and she was vain (keeping her false teeth a secret even from her husband of four decades). At the end, she used her medical knowledge to end her own life, rather than stay chained to a hospital bed with no dignity and no quality of life, taking the time to say a proper goodbye to all her loved ones first. I find her an inspiration still.
Tarot of the Sidhe (Schiffer, 2011) is the Warrior Prince. Having a Warrior (Wands) card come up for my Grandma is not much of a surprise. She was definitely a passionate and outgoing person, even though she also knew how to keep her own counsel. Still, having the Prince (Knight) come up was a little more surprising.
Thinking about it, though, I see this saying that I can honour my Grandma's spirit by following where my passions lead me. Even if, in the moment, that seems a little chaotic or unplanned. I've been thinking today about my life choices. In some ways I'm exactly where I want to be, and am doing things my family and society expect of me: having a baby. In other ways, I worry that I've gone way off-course from what my plans were seven or even two years ago. Yet, I love what I'm doing right now, even if it is unconventional.
I love, too, that this card is titled the Gift of Spirit. This openness to living in the moment and following my passion is the gift I dedicate to my Grandma's spirit.