As part of following the lunar calendar, I again drew two cards from the Tarot of the Sidhe (Schiffer, 2011) to represent what I should release and what I should embrace over the coming lunation.
To me, the message feels quite clear. Perhaps that's just me, as it's almost the same message as I read in the cards at the last new moon. Or perhaps it's just that, while I'm pregnant, this is one of the most important messages I can hear.
I need to release the Maker Queen (Queen of Pentacles). Although this is a beautiful card, right now I can't just pour myself out and try to be abundant and giving to all. Rather, I need to focus on the responsibility I have to this life growing inside of me, as suggested by the Maker Two.
This is quite a tricky one for me. I feel I have a lot of material responsibilities, to my son, my partner, our home, our livelihood. And I sometimes feel guilty at the idea of saying, "Well, as I'm pregnant..." And yet, it's also true that I'm feeling far more drained and tired with this pregnancy than I remember from back with my son. Which may be because I'm older, or may be because this pregnancy is thriving more, or may be because I have a sleep debt going back 6 years and more responsibilities than I did back then. Whatever the case, perhaps I will have to pull the pregnancy card a bit more often, for the sake of this child, as well as myself...