Saturday, 30 November 2013

Kali Sadhana Day 11

Pencil sketch of Kali
After letting my breakfast settle, I went up, called my circle, said my affirmations, and practised yoga for 32 minutes.  I threw in some traditional 12 part sun salutes, as my thighs felt quite tight after yesterday, and crescent is a nice leg stretch.  I also put in some tree poses for balance, and some seated and supine poses.  Then, I chanted out loud.

For some reason, my mind felt very busy this morning, perhaps because I was determined to get my acrylics out today.  Also, I'd just watched a couple of painting tutorials.  I also thought about a comment Ellen made a little while back about drawing or painting in a journal, so she can't just throw things out.  It's funny, I think my feelings are the opposite.  I see a journal as being just for myself, and have one where I have some very rough pages - just experimenting with colours or pencil strokes or the play of light and shadow.  Whereas, painting or drawing on a loose piece of paper feels more scary, as that could actually be displayed on my altar, rather than hidden away in the closed pages of a journal.  Isn't it strange how our minds play with us in this way.

So, I tried to remember that I am doing this painting for fun, and that dedicating it to Kali is about facing my fears about the crapness of my artistic ability, and about doing something new.  It's also about focusing on Kali and her energy while I am creating the image, rather than about the actual outcome/painting.  I got out my acrylics, and chanted Om Krim Kalikaye Namaha while I painted.  That image is going to need rather a few more layers and colours, so I'll not show it yet.  However, here is the pencil image I started on Thursday.  Should have used cartridge paper instead of watercolour, I think, and I really need to work on the subtleties of shading (soft core pencils would probably be better).  Still, it is what it is...

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  1. So brilliant of you to face your fears and do some art work! I consider myself having done something artistic if I change colour of highlighter in my diary. ha ha ;)

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    1. Thanks for the laugh, Carla :D And it does feel good, even knowing it isn't "fine art", it was fun to do :)

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  2. Kerry I think you are just awesome. You did it! This drawing shows the bravery of facing fears! How wonderful you've been chanting while you were painting Now that energy is captured in you painting. Can't wait to see her. You don;t have to be humble for this is is just great. It is funny how everyone approaches his inner censor differently. For me being confronted with my "imperfect" drawings in my book is a lesson to be just as happy with my own work as I am with yours :)

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    1. Thank you, Ellen, that means a lot. And yes, it's interesting how our censors show up. This Kali isn't what I would like to be able to paint or draw, but she's better than I would have managed a year ago, so, baby steps, and have fun making them and stumbling :)

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  3. [clapping and hooting loudly] I think Kali would be very honored!

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    1. Tee hee, thanks. I guess she should understand fears, no matter what form they take… :)

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  4. I like her! She has personality--she could maybe have her own TV show. :) I look forward to seeing your watercolor. Lotsa hugs...MM

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    1. Ha ha, a cartoon Kali kicking demon butt, I like it :D
      Hugs back atcha,
      Kxx

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  5. She is very nice! Very expressive eyes and triumphant gaze!!!! Thanks for sharing with us!!! Muchas Estrellas!!!!!!!

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    1. Thanks, that's sweet of you to say. I did try to give her a direct gaze :) Estrelladisima día!

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