Wednesday, 27 November 2013
Kali Sadhana Day 8
I'm really enjoying using my rudrakasha mala. There's something about the rough texture of the seeds that is kind of tingly :D The texture helps keep me more mindful. They don't just smoothly flow through my fingers, but have a little bite that is renewed each time I move onto the next bead, reminding me of what my hands are doing and why :)
Today, one of the things that came to my mind was the question of fears. Bizarrely enough, turns out I'm afraid of starting to use the acrylics I bought back before the summer! I keep finding reasons not to open them and start painting. Partly, it's the fear of the unknown - how will they work, will I be able to mix them correctly, will they dry out too quickly, will they make a terrible mess? Partly, I think it's the fear that I won't be able to achieve what I want with them, which of course will take practice. I was even thinking of doing a second sketch of Kali in a smaller pad so that I could colour it with pencils, which I feel more comfortable with. Anyhow, I vow to stop wussing about this and actually paint something, anything, by the end of this week!
As for the drawing part of my sadhana, I also realised today that the sketch I thought was ready for painting is actually missing eyebrows - small, incidental detail *doh* So, tonight I shall add in the eyebrows, then this sketch will be ready for painting...