Sunday, 29 December 2013

GT on Tricky Work Situation

I've been stressing a lot about a difficult work situation for about a week now.  Things really came to a head on Friday, in an unpleasant way.  On the up side, it encouraged me to get back to meditating, as I was having bad worry insomnia.  So, I've meditated 5 times this week, and practised yoga at the same time on 4 of those occasions.  I felt like Kali was still a good goddess to call on for this, as it's about facing the situation and my fear of conflict, and breaking the bad habit of worrying at times when I can do nothing anyway.

In the early hours of this morning, when I found myself going over and over what to say in a telephone conversation I expect to have tomorrow, I got up to practise and chant.  Although my meditations have still been based on the Kali sadhana I did, I've let them flow where they will a little more.  This morning, I practised for 21 minutes, ended with a silent yet resounding Jai Kali Ma, and then decided to chant Jai Kali Ma in a whisper, but still out loud.  Ended up doing three rounds on my mala, and it felt good.  I knew it was quiet enough not to wake anyone, but I still felt some of the vibration through my body.

I also decided to draw some cards on this matter.  At first, I was going to draw three tarot cards, freestyle.  Then I thought about my post last week on the Lenormand and thought: "A grand tableau is good for looking at situations with several people."  So, that's what I did, using the Mystical Lenormand (K√∂nigsfurt-Urania, 2004).


I'm not going to go into a detailed analysis of the whole thing, as that would take ages.  Still, I found it very helpful.  I almost stopped after drawing the first line of 9, as that already said so much!

The issue is with a company employee (female) who has been caught in some small lies.  One of the managers (male) believes these have been more far-reaching than has been uncovered, but there is no direct evidence.  She claims he's blowing things out of proportion.  A decision was made to terminate her contract with four weeks notice, rather than firing her on the spot.  I had to draft the letter of termination, giving grounds and working out holiday pay due etc.  As I'm kind of the middle man in all this, she's been emailing me with requests and justifications, which is tough as I like her, but am being pressured by the manager to take a firm line.

Looking at the corners, we have Bouquet, Key, Coffin, Dog.  The loyalty of this woman has ended, as has my loyalty to her, and that is the key to this whole reading.

I see her as the Bouquet - a pretty, somewhat vain, but charming woman.  The manager I see as the Man, and myself as the Woman.  He sees himself as defending the company from the encroachments of a betrayer (Man/Rider).  She is a bit of a chancer (Bouquet/Clover).  And they have gotten into murky territory around questions of money and contractual/managerial duties and responsibilities (Clouds/Fish:Letter/Bear).

It's interesting, I had wondered if I should assign her the Snake card, but I tend to read that as a woman more generally, and I also wanted to see where a potential card of betrayal would come up.  It appears in the House of the Coffin - betrayal must end, the manager is right in that regard.  And where is the Coffin?  In the column of the Bouquet, just below the Book and the Clover: keeping secrets is a kind of sickness with her right now, that she gambles on getting away with.

The Man is above the Rider, the Anchor and the Scythe - he seems harsh, but he sees it as his responsibility to defend the company.  His diagonal going forward holds the Letter, the Stars and the Lily: clarity in contractual communications brings him peace of mind.

And what of me?  The Woman lies above the Moon, the Child and the Tower - I can't be emotionally naive when it comes to institutional requirements.  Also, there is a question of reputation on the line (Moon is between Garden and Ring).

As for the phone call tomorrow, the Woman is followed by the Birds, the Snake and the Key - although I'm anxious about it, communication about the lies that have to end, and clear boundaries, are key to this situation with the employee (the Key is in the House of the Bouquet, and they mirror one another).

There's a lot more there, including another employee who got enmeshed in the situation: Dog, surrounded by Tree, Cross and Ship.  And my repetitive thought patterns bringing insomnia (Whips), resolving (Key above) through clear boundaries and choices (Snake and Paths).  Definitely a helpful reading to clarify what the issues are for me, and what I can best do to resolve them.

14 comments:

  1. I'm sorry that you have to deal with this work drama while you should be celebrating the coming of the new year. And I'm equally glad you find some inner peace in you chanting and meditating. I've never did a GT yet. I think it takes guts to dive in 36 cards en weave them into a coherent story.:D
    Hugs and take care

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    1. Hi Ellen, well, work and turmoil don't stop for "calendar" dates ;)
      As for the GT, you can break it down into smaller, more manageable chunks. Like starting with the corners, and some people look to the centre cards or central line (or bottom line if you do an 8x4+4), and then the columns, or rows. Not even all of them, necessarily. Also, diagonals, nine squares, and knighting from important cards. If you do it all, it can be a lot, but normally you'd just do some of those bits around particular areas. I think, too, if you let your intuition loose, some bits just kind of shout out at you. Like I wouldn't normally interpret the Clover as someone taking chances or gambling, but the context made sense :)
      Once again, I don't like to use the GT predictively, but as here to get a feel for the situation, and perhaps some psychological insight and suggestions for my own approach...

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    2. If you put it that way I might give it a go someday. Perhaps I will first branch out from a line of three to a line of five :)

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    3. The 3x3 square is also a really good spread to try before you go for the GT. You can start with the corners, and read the different lines of 3 within it, including diagonals, and can even add in some knighting… :)

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  2. We used to own a restaurant, and I remember my husband telling me not to be "buddies" with the employees. He didn't mean be cold or unfriendly, but he said if I get too attached and close, it will make it hard for me if I catch one stealing or doing something similar and have to fire or reprimand them. He was so right. I hate being in that position, and it sounds like you've been put there by your boss. (((NP))) It does sound however that she was not being honest, so detach if you can and let her take the consequences for her actions because you didn't have anything to do with that.
    Nice job with the Grand Tableau!

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    1. That's very true. It's tough, though, because we are naturally sociable creatures. And I can't help but see things from other people's point of view sometimes - I don't think many people see themselves as bad, we're all just trying to make our way in the world the best we can. Still, as you say, I can't protect her, that's not my role. :)

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  3. That's a tough position to be in. No wonder you're having trouble sleeping at night. I hope you and the company can put a tidy end to things soon.

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    1. Well, it'll all be over by the end of January, but that's a long time to be stressed out :/ Hopefully, things will calm down sooner...

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  4. You are doing an amazing job navigating something that isn't your fault...take comfort in that and rest well. Nothing that happens with this is personal to you. You are trying to be kind and tactful-she is lucky to have you conveying this message rather than a person who doesn't care.

    Xxxxooooo

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    1. Thanks, MM. I rested a lot better last night, having done the reading :)
      Hugs, Kxx

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  5. Wow! You're doing the best you can in a difficult situation. I hope you manage to get a decent night's sleep and that you're feeling more relaxed soon!

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    1. Thanks, Sharon. I slept well last night, so this definitely helped :)

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  6. Don't you just love how accurate these cards are? If ever I need to know the truth, I consult my Lenormand cards for quick answers. I do send love & light your way and hope that you can find some rest soon. You are put into a difficult position. (I just started to follow your blog. You inspired me to blog about my own path.)

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    1. Yes, they are very helpful. It was good to go back and look over this reading again, plumbing it for some more insights, as this week continues to be tough. Thanks for following, I look forward to reading some more of your posts - and being tempted by your lovely Renaissance Lenormand cards ;)

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