Sunday, 29 December 2013
GT on Tricky Work Situation
In the early hours of this morning, when I found myself going over and over what to say in a telephone conversation I expect to have tomorrow, I got up to practise and chant. Although my meditations have still been based on the Kali sadhana I did, I've let them flow where they will a little more. This morning, I practised for 21 minutes, ended with a silent yet resounding Jai Kali Ma, and then decided to chant Jai Kali Ma in a whisper, but still out loud. Ended up doing three rounds on my mala, and it felt good. I knew it was quiet enough not to wake anyone, but I still felt some of the vibration through my body.
I also decided to draw some cards on this matter. At first, I was going to draw three tarot cards, freestyle. Then I thought about my post last week on the Lenormand and thought: "A grand tableau is good for looking at situations with several people." So, that's what I did, using the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).
I'm not going to go into a detailed analysis of the whole thing, as that would take ages. Still, I found it very helpful. I almost stopped after drawing the first line of 9, as that already said so much!
The issue is with a company employee (female) who has been caught in some small lies. One of the managers (male) believes these have been more far-reaching than has been uncovered, but there is no direct evidence. She claims he's blowing things out of proportion. A decision was made to terminate her contract with four weeks notice, rather than firing her on the spot. I had to draft the letter of termination, giving grounds and working out holiday pay due etc. As I'm kind of the middle man in all this, she's been emailing me with requests and justifications, which is tough as I like her, but am being pressured by the manager to take a firm line.
Looking at the corners, we have Bouquet, Key, Coffin, Dog. The loyalty of this woman has ended, as has my loyalty to her, and that is the key to this whole reading.
I see her as the Bouquet - a pretty, somewhat vain, but charming woman. The manager I see as the Man, and myself as the Woman. He sees himself as defending the company from the encroachments of a betrayer (Man/Rider). She is a bit of a chancer (Bouquet/Clover). And they have gotten into murky territory around questions of money and contractual/managerial duties and responsibilities (Clouds/Fish:Letter/Bear).
It's interesting, I had wondered if I should assign her the Snake card, but I tend to read that as a woman more generally, and I also wanted to see where a potential card of betrayal would come up. It appears in the House of the Coffin - betrayal must end, the manager is right in that regard. And where is the Coffin? In the column of the Bouquet, just below the Book and the Clover: keeping secrets is a kind of sickness with her right now, that she gambles on getting away with.
The Man is above the Rider, the Anchor and the Scythe - he seems harsh, but he sees it as his responsibility to defend the company. His diagonal going forward holds the Letter, the Stars and the Lily: clarity in contractual communications brings him peace of mind.
And what of me? The Woman lies above the Moon, the Child and the Tower - I can't be emotionally naive when it comes to institutional requirements. Also, there is a question of reputation on the line (Moon is between Garden and Ring).
As for the phone call tomorrow, the Woman is followed by the Birds, the Snake and the Key - although I'm anxious about it, communication about the lies that have to end, and clear boundaries, are key to this situation with the employee (the Key is in the House of the Bouquet, and they mirror one another).
There's a lot more there, including another employee who got enmeshed in the situation: Dog, surrounded by Tree, Cross and Ship. And my repetitive thought patterns bringing insomnia (Whips), resolving (Key above) through clear boundaries and choices (Snake and Paths). Definitely a helpful reading to clarify what the issues are for me, and what I can best do to resolve them.