Friday, 6 December 2013

Kali Sadhana Day 17

Once again, I thought I might just do a very short practice and sitting meditation, as I wanted to go back to bed for a nap.  However, after invoking my circle and stating my affirmations, I ended up practising yoga for 28 minutes (the sun salutes only took 13, and I'd given myself permission to finish there).  I also chanted a full mala of Om Krim Kalikaye Namaha, and took the time to draw a card from the Oracle of the Shapeshifters (Beyond Words, 2013).

My first reaction was to see someone who is happy out in the wild, willing to be naked and vulnerable in the woods.  Made me think about going out on the Heath for a walk, which my DH and I haven't done for a couple of weeks.  He'd actually suggested it yesterday, and this afternoon we did, and it was lovely!  Though I have to say that I struggle with hills at the moment…

When I looked at the caption: "Now you are independent and free" it didn't really say much to me.  Thinking about it more, though, I find it curious that my first reaction was to say: "No, I've always been independent and free!"  My second reaction was to think about how I feel tied to our current location, as it's about the best place in the world for my son, with amazing provision for disabilities, and great hospitals.  How, too, I feel bound to my family: I love my son far too much to leave him.  So, I don't feel free to take on a job which might conflict with my caring for him, nor to move to a city or country that wouldn't be as hospitable to him.  Yet, I am free.  I could choose those things, but I don't, and that is still a choice, even if it feels like I couldn't make a different one.  It's interesting, too, as I didn't choose to include the affirmation which Eowyn suggested: I am opening the way for true freedom...

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  1. This has made me think about my own freedom. I've considered myself also bound to my situation, Obligated to do the responsible as a mother and a wife, but in fact it is my own choice for I would never pack up my bag and leave them. There is too much love involved. Perhaps choosing for love is freedom. Thank you for pointing out that I choose for this life and the people I love

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    1. I like that, Ellen, choosing love is a kind of freedom! :)

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  2. My reference to true freedom in my affirmation was not made with the circumstances of my mundane life in mind, but oneness with spirit. Freedom from the constraints of my own mind and consciousness. The details of this life are not real, in comparison to that. Perhaps this is my six years of Buddhist practice talking now.

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    1. When you talk about freedom from the constraints of your own mind, I can get behind it. However, I'm not sure about the idea of life as maya. I'm more in favour of the pagan idea of finding spirit in the world, in nature, in life :)

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    2. And yet, everything is an illusion, or maya, isn't it? This world, nature, life -- it's all energy, just atoms jumping around, and atoms are made up mostly of space. Of course spirit is in the world, in nature, in life, because it's everything. Spirit is all anything is. It's all everything is. If we look deeply enough at anything, it dissolves into spirit. The veil of illusion lifts for just an amazing moment,

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    3. I don't think that makes the world an illusion, more that there are different ways of perceiving it. None is more true, they are just different. And a sensorial perspective can be just as connected to spirit as a more energetic one, perhaps even more so as it is more available to our limited human senses...

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  3. There is always a choice, just because you choose one over the other doesn't mean you've lost your freedom. :)
    Take it easy on those hills!

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    1. Very true! As for hills, and stairs, where I live they're both hard to avoid, so I just have to take them slowly ;)

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