Friday, 31 May 2013


This morning, I asked the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) what would help me connect to spirit today.  My answer: Key, Ring, Moon.

Simple and to the point, this tells me that the answer is committing emotionally, and to make sure I do so!  

What does that mean, though?  One part is to express the emotional commitment I feel to those around me, near or far.  Through friendship and love, I connect not just with the person before me, but with the spirit that is within us both.  Rather like the expression Namaste, this is a reminder to honour the divine spark at my heart in recognising the divine spark at your heart :)

The second part is to act on what I feel emotionally committed to.  Reading Eowyn's post this morning over at Cherlindrea's Grove, she talked about her word for the year.  Mine is Creativity.  So, today I am going to go out and get some art supplies that have been on my shopping list for a while, and actually use them!  I'll be creative in my work as well: filing can wait til next week, today is for the creative parts of what need doing ;)

Thoughts on the Nature of Deity

A couple of weeks ago, chanting with Deva Premal and Miten, I was struck by the words of one of the mantras, the Moola Mantra, which translates as: 

Oh Divine Force, Spirit of All Creation, Highest Personality, Divine Presence, manifest in every living being - Supreme Soul manifested as the Divine Mother and as the Divine Father - I bow in deepest reverence.

One thing that struck me here is the mention of the Divine Mother and the Divine Father as manifestations of the Supreme Soul.  I wondered whether it could have been from contact with Indian thinking, especially through the Theosophical Society, that the idea of the balance of masculine and feminine as expressions of spirit came into pagan thinking (as it certainly wasn't around in the Christian background from which paganism sprang).  Not just that, but a respect for the divinity of every living being!

Ronald Hutton writes very interestingly in The Triumph of the Moon (Oxford Paperbacks, 1995) about the influences that led to what we know today as paganism.  According to his timeline, much of what we now follow as paganism developed around and after the industrial revolution, and would fit with influences from India through the British Empire.  Not only the form of much pagan ritual is found also in lodges like those of the Theosophical Society, but many important founders of modern paganism were likewise members: such as Dion Fortune.

These ideas are also found in Juddaism, at least as I understand it from Rachel Pollack.  She mentions several times Jewish scripture in which it is said (and I paraphrase): first there was no-thingness (ain), which opened out into infinity (ain soph), and then became divine light (ohr ain soph). From this came the One (Jehovah), from the One came the Two (masculine and feminine forms of the deity), from the Two came the Three (like Horus coming from Isis and Osiris, as in the Egyptian pantheon), and from the three came the ten thousand things (ie. all the amazing beings of the world).  For, possibly, a bit more clarity, you can check out the wiki entry on this.

How I read this, is that the idea of deity as beyond binaries, and certainly beyond monotheism, is present in a number of very ancient religious texts.  It may be easier for us to worship deity as masculine or feminine, as both, or as neither, depending on our cultural history and personal preferences.  Above it all, there is spirit, made manifest in the world, in every living being, as it says in the Moola Mantra.

I like the way Eowyn put it on her blog a couple of days ago: she talked about all deities being 'emanations of the Universal Consciousness that is present in all things'.  Personally, I connect more with feminine personifications of deity than with masculine ones.  Still, I make a point to put a variety on my altar, to try to broaden my own horizons.  I also like symbols that go beyond these binaries, for example the Om, or crystals, flowers, candle light.  I see the divine in all of these, and much more...

Thursday, 30 May 2013

Lenormand-Inspired Thoughts...

Yesterday, I asked for a spiritual focus, and wondered if I should pull a line of five, or a double line of five.  But I just drew three cards from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004), and found that was more than enough!

In the Lily, Paths and Sun, I see so many possibilities!  There is the question of balance, of which path we choose: that of peace or that of energy?  Conversely, we could see them as the path of passion or the path of enlightenment!   

Breaking it down, it's possible to see Lily and Sun in the following dualities:

Lily                              Sun

cold                              hot
peace                            energy
meditation                    activity
passion                         enlightenment

This reminded me of some yogic thought on the difficulties of leading a spiritual life and an everyday life.  For example, in his book Yoga Mala, Patthabi Jois, the founder of Astanga Yoga, talks about what a "householder" can do, and when.  Bizarre (to my eyes) specifications of when a householder can have intercourse with his wife and still maintain a yogic attitude, for instance.

This is one of the things that I most value about paganism, the idea that spirituality is in nature, in the body, in everyday life, in sexuality.  That we don't have to live like monks, separated from the world, to lead a spiritual life.

The cards, then, say that on this spiritual path, I can embrace both meditation and activity, passion and enlightenment!  So mote it be )o(

Tuesday, 28 May 2013

Meet the Sidhe: Maker Two

Tarot of the Sidhe
Here we have the Maker Two card from Emily Carding's Tarot of the Sidhe (Schiffer, 2012).  Last week, I did a reading for someone in which this card came up.  Hopefully, its message was helpful to her.  It struck me as having something interesting to say to me, too.

This card is quite unlike traditional Two of Pentacles cards which have a man juggling in front of a heaving sea.  In this Maker Two card we see a baby fey lying on the ground in amongst the roots of a tree in a green field.  A red umbilical cord joins the fey and the tree, disappearing into a bole in the trunk and snaking round like the Great Glyph of the Sidhe.  The sun seems to shine out from behind the tree, its rays lending a warm colour to the sky.  Two butterflies fly in opposite directions away from the tree, while the fey holds a flower gently in its hand.

Part of the message in this card for me has always been an environmental one.  After all, the card is subtitled Responsibility, and shows the Sidhe being intimately connected to the tree.  We need to find a balance in how we live on this planet, and how we interact with the other beings on it.

The surprise for me was in one line that I wrote in the reading I sent.  I said there was a "need to find a balance between enjoying the beauty of life and taking responsibility for what you create."   Often, when I write, words come that I don't consciously plan, they just flow.  It's one of the reasons I love blogging :)  

What I see in this for me is the delicate balance between the joy of creating and the responsibility to finish things.  The fey lies in the grass, looking at the flower in its hand, or perhaps at one of the butterflies.  It is in the moment, enjoying the sensual feast that its spot on the ground offers: the feel of the earth beneath it; the smell of grass and flowers; the play of light and shadows; the flit of butterfly wings; the freshness of the air around it.  Yet, without sustenance and continued care, the fey will cease to exist without every fulfilling its potential.  And if it doesn't nurture the tree in return, that too could wither and die.  

It is not enough to begin things, to enjoy the excitement of creation, the joy of seeing or hearing or playing with what we are making.  We also have to commit to that creation, to see it through.  While not every idea we have may come to fruition, without our taking responsibility for our ideas none of them are likely to become what they could be.  

I'm a fine one for getting distracted.  For example, I started a "Meet the Sidhe" series last summer, yet that remains unfinished.  And it may never get done, and that's okay: I know I still love this deck, and I can enjoy writing about it as and when the spirit moves me.  There are no consequences for not sticking to some self-imposed schedule.  

For some of my other projects, though, it's not okay if they never reach their conclusion.  Mainly when they involve other people, too.  So, this card is a reminder that despite my Gemini butterfly nature, there are times when I have to take responsibility for things I have started.  It also reminds me of the benefits of doing so: the possibility of creating the ephemeral beauty of a magnificent flower, or the more lasting wonder of a tree.  The size of the project doesn't matter, only that it becomes all it can be.  Okay, back to work then!

Saturday, 25 May 2013

Dream Spread

Okay, that title is perhaps a little deceptive: this isn't a spread for looking at dreams, necessarily, it's a spread I dreamt about.  It's one I've used before, but last night I had a dream in which I was doing lots of face-to-face readings, and this was the spread I was using.  So, when I woke up, I decided I'd give it a whirl to see what message my dream was telling me I need to hear.  The spread is simply a double line of five, drawn from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).

Angel,             Tree,           Mountain,       Spirit Guides,       House.
Scythe,           Rider,              Sun,                  Coffin,                 Dog.   
What I see here is that at the heart of the reading there is an energetic blockage (Mountain/Sun) that is an obstacle to happiness (Mountain/Sun).  The Angels' message is that they want to guide me to a harvest of health (Angel/Scythe, Tree).  However, it will require cutting the energy I put into cardio exercise (Scythe, Rider, Sun).  The health of my joints (Tree/Rider) is blocked and causing my unhappiness (Mountain/Sun).  This is true, as for the last day or two my knees have been hurting, and my back has been sore for two weeks now (Rider - joints, Tree - spine).

This is probably due in part to the fact that recently I've been doing a lot more cardio exercise again, particularly step and high intensity interval training.  I stopped doing step over a decade ago because of chronic shinsplints.  However, recently I thought that if I kept it low impact, I could perhaps go back to this old love of mine.  Which would probably be fine, except that because I enjoy it so much I have been doing 5 or 6 days a week of this high intensity exercise.  Before this, I had cut high intensity cardio down to no impact (stationary bike) and three times a week.  The blockage, then, is my desire to do these tough workouts (and so many of them) when my body just isn't up to it anymore.

An end to this energetic obstacle to health is in sight though (Tree, Mountain/Sun, Coffin).  An energetic transformation (Sun, Coffin) is possible if I learn from the past (Spirit Guides) and befriend my whole body (House/Dog) again.  This says to me that I need to cut back on these workouts as I did before.  Still, I don't want to give up exercise.  So, what else can the cards suggest?  They say that I should be faithful to the spirit of a deceased family member (Spirit Guides/Coffin, House/Dog).  Letting this percolate in my mind, I was reminded of a great aunt.  She was a ballerina, and though she suffered from arthritis she was still able to perform a ballet recital on her 80th birthday!  While her hands were arthritic lumps, her lower body had maintained its mobility through her regular practice.

More ballet it is, then :)  And while I'm at it, I shall keep typing, too, which is good exercise for the fingers.  I don't want to end up being a solid, mountain-like lump when I'm older!

Thursday, 23 May 2013

Altar Video

Decided to do a quick video of my altar setup, figuring it shouldn't take much longer to video it than just doing it without videoing it, right?  Famous last words...  Anyhow, after a few hassles with the format and transferring the files from the camera to the computer, which involved running up and down a lot of stairs, as well as editing in an intro board etc, here it is.  I decided to record myself chanting Om Tare Tuttare Ture Svaha over the fast frame bit, so as not to risk the wrath of Youtube for using someone else's music.  Yeah, that's right, letting it all hang out :D


Goddess Guidance Oracle
Today was the third day I chanted the healing mantra Om Shree Dhanvantre Namaha: two rounds on my mala beads.  A strange thing happened, though.  Afterwards, I started hearing a different mantra in my head.  And it wasn't the one Carla at Rowan Tarot had mentioned yesterday, either, though that would have made obvious sense as I read the post this morning.  Instead, it was Om Tare Tuttare Ture Svaha

Although this was another chant from the 21 day journey, I didn't remember off hand what it meant, so googled it.  It asks Green Tara for healing.  Which is interesting both because it is another healing mantra and because it specifically names Tara. 

When my son was born, a shaman friend of my mother offered to do a spirit journey for him.  And she recommended calling on Tara, White Tara in particular.  The only image I had specifically of White Tara was this one from Doreen Virtue's Goddess Guidance Oracle (Hay House, 2004).  So, despite the irrelevant text, that image was what I had on my altar for about six months.  I put it back on my altar a couple of times when he was in hospital, too, though not for a couple of years now.

I am taking this as a message that Tara is still there and still needed, even if in a slightly different form.  So, here's a picture of my altar today.  The Green and White Tara's are from the Doreen Virtue deck, with the middle Tara from the Goddess Oracle (U.S. Games, 2006) by Marashinksy and Janto (my favourite Goddess deck).  The Angels are two cards for Archangel Gabriel from Doreen Virtue's Archangel Oracle Cards (Hay House, 2004).  Yeah, I know, a lot of DV on there, but those are the images that called to me.  The Nurture card is one I have printed and laminated in the past, as it is a perfect focus for raising and sending healing and protective energy to my son.  And the other is also to Archangel Gabriel and talks of Creative Writing, which fitted so well with my last post that I decided to include it!

As well as pushing me to refresh my altar, this experience means I shall still chant to Dhanvantre for 21 days, but I will also do a round to Tara every day, too :)

Tuesday, 21 May 2013

Ask My Angels

Yesterday, I finally finished Deva Premal and Miten's 21 day mantra meditation journey, which has been a beautiful experience.  So, today I started my 21 days with Om Shree Dhanvantre Namaha - a mantra for healing.   I remember them saying in the introduction to this mantra that it is for all kinds of healing, not just the physical.  And boy, do I feel we are in need of that!  Both me personally, on a more emotional level, and my son in particular on a physical level.  To be honest, I think my DH could do with it, too, though he brazens it out more.  It's been a tough year.

Anyway, while chanting this morning and trying to focus on the healing we all need, I started crying.  Which may of course be part of my own healing - expressing the pain, frustration and sadness I feel right now.  With all that, I ended up doing two rounds of my mala beads - 216 repetitions.  I felt lighter at the end of it, though I'm not sure I'd want to blub every day.  We'll see how it goes tomorrow...

Done with my weeping, but still feeling in need of some angelic guidance, I decided to use a traditional Lenormand approach.  So, I shuffled and looked for the Angel card in the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) to find out what the angels suggest to me this week.

Ring, Sun, Angel, Letter, Snake: the angels advise an energetic commitment to transformative writing.

Although I'm involved in a spiritual writing project, I associate that more with the Book.  Rather, what I see here is this blog.  After all, it is here that I feel I can write most anything I like.  It's funny, because several times I've thought about chucking this blog in: I spend time on it that I could spend on said writing project; it doesn't further my professional image; and I've only had a couple of reading requests through it.  But perhaps that's why I most need to keep it: it's just for me, rather than for anything official/work-related.  Here, I can write about my more negative thoughts, and blog any way I like, not worrying about whether I'm being consistent or putting on a good show.

So, although it may not be a worthwhile pursuit, nor make any money, nor help anyone else particularly, I shall keep writing here.  I hope some of you will enjoy the card readings, or the discussion of meditation practices, or whatever else.

Sunday, 19 May 2013

Angelic Guidance

Oracle of the Shapeshifters
A few days ago, I drew this card: The Golden Phoenix from the US edition of the Oracle of Shapeshifters (Beyond Words, 2013).  It's another of the cards which is different to the Oz edition, with a far smaller phoenix, and more of a close-up on a big-faced, big-eyed girl, rather than the somewhat waif-like figure on the Oz card.  Still, I like how her hair, lips and eyes echo the colours of the Phoenix.

Anyway, I was a little surprised by the title on this card: Something you thought finished bursts back into life.  Nothing sprang to mind straight away, so I decided to draw a Lenormand line of five to clarify, from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).  I left in the extra cards, and what I drew was: Cross, Fish, Mice, Paths, Angel.

How I read this was that copious burdens will be reduced by angelically-guided choices.  And with that, the previous card made a lot more sense.  Although I was originally thinking of a spiritual card for the day, this covers that and a lot more.

Mystical Lenormand (just realised the scan is back to front - doh!)
Over the last week, my son has been having some quite nasty health issues.  One of them is something that has been a recurring issue, but which he "officially" doesn't have.  They did a test on him back in 2010 which didn't show the problem, though even the technician who carried out the test said the way they tested was faulty and gave a lot of false negatives!  Anyhow, since then we have had one other time when this happened, but it was sorted by giving him antibiotics.  Then, we decided not to chase a correct diagnosis and just get on with things.  However, being faced this week with doctors telling us "Oh, well he doesn't have a history of this condition," has been extremely annoying, as well as unhelpful.

What I see the cards telling me, is that as this condition has become an issue again, I need to see it through to a proper diagnosis this time.  Although it will be stressful in the short term, it will reduce problems in the longer term.  My DH has been saying we should just not worry about it, but a voice in me says that it's better to cope with the hassles now than have this happening over and over.  So, I shall take the advice and push for a proper diagnosis.

Wednesday, 15 May 2013

What Matters?

On Sunday, I chanted along with Deva Premal and Miten to day 14 of their 21 day Mantra Meditation Journey, which was a chant they called "Buddha Consciousness" - Om Muni Muni Maha Muni Swaha.  They described it as a mantra seeking enlightenment: starting with ourselves, and for the whole planet.  After chanting, I drew this line of five from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).  I shuffled and looked for the Sun, but it was right at the bottom of the pack, the first card I saw, so instead of having two cards to either side of it, I just took the next four cards after it.

Cards on my altar
My first interpretation was that enlightenment burns away the clouds of confusion, bringing us to a place where we can rationally choose to commit to what we believe in.  I saw this in terms of working this week on a project that matters a lot to me.

However, things haven't worked out that way.  My son has been having several different health issues, and so I've spent the whole week so far either caring for him, taking him to see various doctors, or ringing and emailing different hospitals and our GP's surgery, as well as collecting and administering prescriptions.  In that light, these cards seem far more to say that happiness has been clouded, and I have had to take a rational, scientific approach to issues.  It has also required me to commit my time and energy to things that feel very burdensome, and yet which I also recognise as being ethically the right thing to do.

Coming back to the chanting, the chant I did on Tuesday was one for healing - Om Shree Dhanvantre Namaha (that's a link to youtube with Deva chanting it - lovely!).  Deva and Miten suggest that at the end of the 21 day Mantra journey we choose one mantra to chant for 21 days.  There were lots of mantras that appealed to me, and although I liked the idea, I felt unable to settle on one.  One I considered was Aham Prema - I am love.  Another was the Gayatri Mantra, or Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya, or even the simple Om Shanti Om.  Now, though, I also see in these cards the idea of committing to a healing mantra - we could definitely all do with the energy here to blow away the clouds of ill health that have covered our son.  A rational choice, but a good one, I think :)

Sunday, 12 May 2013

Transformative Journey

This morning, I drew a line of five from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004), asking for a spiritual focus for the day.

This line (Snake, Ship, Storks, Bear, Tree), made me think about the transformative journey that yoga has been and continues to be in my life.  The Storks card is associated with change, but keywords also include flexibility.  And with Bear for strength and Tree for health, these are all things that I connect with yoga.

After drawing this line, I chanted along to another meditation mantra from Deva Premal and Miten.  It's been lovely taking part in their 21 Day Mantra Meditation Journey.  And later in the morning, I chose a mellow yoga practice as my exercise for the day.  I have been practising yoga for 23 years now, and never tire of it.  Though I'll admit my practice has changed over the years: I have to be gentle on my wrists, in particular, these days.  Both of these are parts of what yoga means to me - meditation, mindfulness, and a physical practice that stretches and strengthens my body in a respectful, gentle way.

I am glad the cards encouraged me to focus on yoga today, rather than doing some more energetic cardio exercise with a driving dance beat.  It was lovely to finish feeling relaxed and energised, rather than sweaty and buzzed, though that has its place, too :)

Friday, 10 May 2013

May New Moon Reading

Tarot of the Sidhe
For this new moon, I decided to draw two cards from the Tarot of the Sidhe (Schiffer, 2011) to represent what I need to leave behind at this time, and what I should move towards.  I received the Dreamer Prince and Maker Five "Winter's Bite".

As something to leave behind, I read the Dreamer Prince saying that I need to rein in my mind and my thoughts.  Especially critical thoughts, whether of myself or others.  As for Winter's Bite being something to move towards, I read this as needing to come to an acceptance of some difficult circumstances around my material and physical experience.  I notice the rays of sun peaking out from behind the mountain, which suggests that there is light on the horizon, an easing of these troubles.  Yet, those same rays appear to emanate from the Dreamer Prince's head, too.  This suggests I should not expect this hope to come from myself, but from the outside, from spirit.

Deciding to draw a line of three from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) to look at how I can best achieve these things, I pulled Snake, Fox and Rider.

This moon time, then, transformation comes through skillful forward movement :)  It will require all my skills, and a willingness to keep moving, no matter how much the road winds and turns.  Reading the cards from a different perspective, the Rider in the "future" and the Snake in the "past" suggests using athletic pursuits to leave behind intelligence (Snake) gone into overdrive (Dreamer Prince).  And working smarter rather than harder is suggested by Snake and Fox, which will bring movement (Rider) to my material situation (Winter's Bite).

Wednesday, 8 May 2013

Butterfly Frogs

Shapeshifters US Edition
“Yadda Yadda”!  That was my first response to drawing this card from the US edition of the Oracle of the Shapeshifters (Beyond Words, 2013).  This is one of the 18 cards that was totally re-vamped image-wise, and one of just two where every last thing seems to have been changed from the original version. 

When I first saw this card, I wondered why such a huge change had been made.  I liked the previous version, Poseidon’s Daughter (below from Blue Angel edition).  And the title and tag, talk about cliched!  You Are Unlike Anyone Else, a human snowflake, different but perfect in your own way, so don’t let anyone try to pigeon-hole you or tell you you’re wrong for being different, blah blah.  

Yes, of course I believe that to be true: that we are all unique, and that we have the right to not only be contradictory and different, but to express that uniqueness.  The companion book also says something along the lines of: if others tell you you’re neither this nor that (like the butterfly-frogs), and say you have to choose one or the other to fit their labels, tell them no.  All well and good, but that is definitely a hard place to be.  

Shapeshifters Australian Edition
And there’s the good bit about this card.  Though the artwork of this deck may be dreamy and “pretty”, there are some real messages here.  It isn’t easy to be considered strange, a freak, ugly, or just different.  Yet, that shouldn’t be reason enough for us to try to conform to other people’s expectations.

It’s funny, too, the way that everyone seems to have expectations.  In my day job, people expect rationality (I work with a lot of engineers and business types).  In the esoteric community, you’d think people would be more loosey-goosey, more open to difference.  Yet, my experience a few months ago was of being criticised in these circles for not being “traditional”.  

So, perhaps I do need this message that it’s okay to be neither this nor that, and just see where my butterfly wings will take me :D

Monday, 6 May 2013

Oz v US - Oracle of the Shapeshifters

For those who are interested, a quick heads-up about a new review I just posted on Youtube.  It compares the original Australian edition (Blue Angel, 2011), to the new American edition (Beyond Words, 2013).  The two editions of the Oracle of the Shapeshifters are both 45 card decks, but 20 of the images have been altered, 18 of those being completely new images!  So, the review gives side-by-side comparisons of the changed cards, as well as saying a bit about the companion book, cardstock and packaging :)

Releasing Fears

Last week, I wrote about a ritual Carla at Rowan Tarot suggested for releasing fears.  After blogging, I wrote down my fears, focused on them, and let them go.  On Friday, I drew some cards from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) on what I should know for the Bank Holiday weekend.

Although I planned to draw three cards, my normal practice is to fan the cards, then close my eyes as I draw them.  When I opened my eyes, I realised that the centre card was actually two cards.  Straight away, I moved the top one over the other three, without having turned them over to see what they were.

Here, I see the Cross above as the theme for the reading, pointing to both the burden my fears had been, and the faith that allowed them to be released.  Then, Stars, Child and Birds say that a new clarity will allow me to speak in a way that dispels anxiety (both talking and anxiety are associated with the Birds, in the same way that both faith and burdens are with the Cross).  

This certainly rang true for the weekend.  On Friday, I talked to my DH about one of the fears that had been most upsetting me, which was to do with several things he had said.  He stated that he hadn't meant them in that way, and that he will try to be more mindful about how he expresses things (he can be very absolutist and rigid, sometimes).  Then, on Saturday, we talked about another of my fears, in the light of a social engagement we had planned.  Once again, talking it through was really helpful.  However, I don't think I would have been able to talk about these things if it hadn't been for a session with my therapist on Thursday.

One of the things I always worry about in terms of talking things through is that I will say something too angrily, and so make it hard for the other to hear the pain and the reality to me of what I'm saying.  I did a fair bit of swearing in my therapy session, as well as clarifying exactly what was bothering me, and I think that really helped when it came to the actual conversations - in which there was no swearing ;)

Thursday, 2 May 2013

Opening My Heart

Following on from yesterday's post, I decided to draw a line of five from the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004).  To do so, I shuffled the cards well, and then looked for the Heart card, and took it and the two cards to either side to show me what I need to know about love in my life.

Clover, Moon, Heart, Mountain, Spirit Guides (one of the four extra cards).  At a basic level, I saw this saying that my heart is quite open at a mundane level: my everyday emotions are fairly happy (Clover + Moon).  However, there is a block at the heart level between myself and spirit (Mountain + Spirit Guides).

Romance Angels
What might help me remove this obstacle between myself and spirit?  Doreen Virtue's Romance Angels seemed a good oracle deck to use for this question.  Although it can be used for regular romance readings, I think it also works quite well for questions about divine love.  I drew: It is Safe for You to Love.  Interestingly, this is one of only three cards in the entire deck with the word "heart" on it!  I read this as saying that my heart is closed because I don't feel safe, because of all my fears.

After drawing these cards, I once again took part in Deva Premal and Miten's 21 Day Mantra Meditation Journey.  Going to day 6, the mantra was Om asatoma satgamaya, Tamasoma jyotirgamaya, Mrityorma amritamgamaya.  They explained that gamaya means "lead us" and so the mantra translates roughly as: Lead us from illusion to reality, Lead us from darkness to light, Lead us from death to eternal life.  I found this mantra really poignant with these cards - it is asking to be lead beyond our fears.  Chanting this will hopefully open me more to my spirit guides, those who can lead me to divine love.

To help release my fears even more, tomorrow I plan to do a beautiful ritual created by Carla over at Rowan Tarot.  She created this based on the Dreamer Princess card from the Tarot of the Sidhe - wonderful idea!

Wednesday, 1 May 2013

Brimming With Emotion

Mystical Lenormand
Yesterday morning, I figured out my technological issues, and was able to get back on Deva Premal and Miten's 21 Day Mantra Meditation Journey.  I decided to go back to day 4, having done days 1-3 plus day 7 (admittedly by myself).  The mantra for day 4 was Aham Prema - I am love!

The chanting was beautiful (Deva's as opposed to mine, but I enjoyed my part of it).  And focusing on my heart chakra, and on the feeling of love, what came to my mind was the Heart card in Lenormand.  Not the one I show here, though!  Despite using the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004) regularly, what I saw wasn't a heart alight with passion.

Perhaps because of my years reading tarot, when I think of love, compassion, tenderness and romance, I think more of water than of fire.  I saw a heart on a beach, with the ocean stretching far and wide beyond it.  This fitted well with the mantra: we are all a part of the ocean of love.  Yet, for most of our lives we draw out of that ocean, separating ourselves.

In some ways, I think that's necessary: we have to come out onto the beach, to get grounded and separate as part of our incarnation as a human being.  We need to express love in our everyday lives, to practice and experience it at a physical and mundane level, with our friends and family.  And in other ways, oh, the joy to dive back into that ocean and feel ourselves buoyed by the unity of life, riding the swell of absolute love.  Flowing with a mantra affirming not just love, but my part in it, that's what I felt!