James Ricklef - a Christmas present from a dear friend. I almost missed the reading: I hadn't had time/remembered to go on Facebook to check the appointment, as we'd had no help with my son for over 48 hours straight - the first time in years that's happened!
Anyway, fortunately I had already thought of a question before contacting James, so I wasn't suddenly there on-line with him thinking "Crap, now what do I ask?"
My question was about why the Tower has been stalking me for nearly seven years now. I understand why it first came up, but felt like a failure that it's still doing so, like I haven't learned what I needed to learn.
So, talking it over with James, he started to draw some cards. The first was:
What do I need to know about the Tower appearing: Knight of Wands.
When he first described the meaning of the card, I just wasn't connecting with it. The Tower, for me, is largely about my son, and about what my expectations of motherhood had been, as well as the constant shake-ups to the routines we try to establish for him. Talk of charging into things didn't sound right.
Then, James lifted the card to the camera, and I saw it straight away: this Knight is charging forward, but still looking back! I am still so lost in what happened six years ago that I can't see where I'm headed now, or even where I am. I still have some letting go and accepting to do around this whole topic, so that I can put my energy to more productive and forward-looking use.
What can I do to move forward: Eight of Cups.
Hmm, I think this counts as the tarot's sense of irony! Just let go of all those old emotions already :) Seriously, though, James talked about seeking the higher spiritual view of this situation, of what is to be learned from it. That brought me to the fact that I feel a failure for not "getting" the lesson. However, he said that I'm clearly walking the path, even if I've not yet reached the top of the mountain :)
Interestingly, James also suggested that there might be some past-life issues being worked out here. It's something I feel unsure about, not certain what I believe in that sense. I certainly don't see why a human soul should keep being reincarnated as a human, as though we have some privileged vantage on life. There's also the bit of me that doesn't get why any soul would agree to be born into a life where they suffer pain daily, where they barely struggle to survive, and wouldn't without modern technology.
Still, the suggestion that spiritual seeking will help me move forward does sound right to me. After all, that's what meditating, chanting, and seeking to understand life through tarot readings is about :)
What is this moving towards: The Star.
Well, at least that's a wonderfully positive card to be moving towards! And, obviously, it is the direct follow-on in the Majors series from the Tower. So, hopefully, I really am moving on from the Tower, finally.
It's nice, too, that this echoes the card for me to embrace this lunation. It's time for me to hope again, and to trust in the universe, and perhaps to seek guidance and support in that…
Altogether, this was a really uplifting, interesting and beautiful reading, and I would highly recommend James as a compassionate and inspiring tarotist.