2014 Tapping World Summit. Tapping, or EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique), is something I've been aware of for at least seven years - I had a session with an EFT practitioner back then, but I didn't like him very much, and didn't continue with it. However, my mother is a very sensible woman (a Virgoan, and down to earth). And thinking about the potential for releasing fears, I was reminded that I still feel a lot of fear around the birth of my second son, hopefully in about 4 weeks time. So, I decided to take another look at it.
I had a look through one book, and at a couple of websites, and decided to start tapping on my fear that something will happen to my second son during his birth. However, as I tapped, the sentence that kept coming up was actually "I am afraid to see my son suffer" and I started to cry.
I realised that this is not just about my unborn baby, but also about my first son. Sometimes, I have felt I don't spend enough time with him, I'm always glad when he can go to school, or when he is sleeping peacefully. I think this may be part of that fear of seeing him suffer. My son has pain every day of his life, and that can be really hard to watch as a mother. Knowing I can't prevent it, just try to help make it less bad, or more tolerable, is a hard place to be. And of course, the two are also related: it's because I have to watch my first son suffer on a daily basis that I am so afraid something bad could happen to my second son.
This acted as a powerful reminder for me of why these "self-help" techniques may often not be used by people. It's not that they don't work, but that they take work: a willingness to explore our pain, our baggage, our fears. This is something that I will continue with - after all, the birth is fast approaching, and I don't want my fear to potentially create the very thing I am afraid of!