Sunday, 30 March 2014

Motherhood

Today, I decided to draw a card from my Maat Tarot app, as my decks are mostly still in bags, waiting to be unpacked.  The card that came up was perfect: the Queen of Coins.

Not only does Julia Cuccia-Watts describe her as the archetypal mother, but she also has her standing there with one breast on show.  For someone who is getting her breasts out every couple of hours to feed a baby, that seems pretty much where I am.

Still, it's not just about where I am, but about where I need to be.  I haven't meditated since the day I gave birth, and I'm missing it.  And yet, I am also often in the moment, feeling things intensely at both a physical and emotional level.  Feeling the suck of a baby at my breast, feeling the love welling in my heart.

Focusing on being a mother, I am storing up goodness for later, creating a lasting relationship with my child.  That is the coin that I am squirrelling away in my treasure chest, and it's worth it, even if other things are left by the wayside for the moment...

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  1. It sounds like your breast-feeding sessions are perfect 'present moment, wonderful moment' meditations. Just breathe in and out. Listen to those oddly primitive noises the baby makes. Immerse yourself in the sensations of this most fleshly and spiritual of experiences. :) x

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    1. It's true, it's a very present process. Though sometimes those feral noises and faces are almost scary - the mini-hunter bringing down his boobie prey :D

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  2. Whoo hoo! You had the baby! :D I was thinking you must have when you didn't post for a while. I can't think of a deeper meditation than being present while your baby nurses. I bet he/she would love to hear mom do some soft chanting. :)
    Congratulations to you and your man.

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    1. Hee hee, thanks, yes, that's why I've been MIA. My baby boy was born two and a half weeks ago, and is a sheer delight. Oh, I hadn't thought to chant softly to him, but he should be used to the sound after all my chanting through pregnancy :)

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  3. What an apt way to read this card and especially how you interpret this one coin. It will still be there after you and LO have established a rhythm where there is some spare time for you to meditate. For the mean time I agree fully with Eowyn.

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    1. Yes, these early days will never come again, so I must make the most of them :) And yes, I shall try to see my breast-feeding time as a chance to be present...

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  4. Awww...what a sweet and contemplative post about your motherhood experience. I can't wait to see more pics!

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    1. It's funny, I've actually taken quite a lot of pics, just haven't posted them anywhere :) Okay, will try to rectify that...

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  5. What a beautiful post. I am full of joy at your wonderful mothering!

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    1. I often feel torn, I want to be a good mother, but I don't want to not also be me. Silly, I know. At least while he naps on my lap, like now, I can come on-line a little...

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