Friday, 27 June 2014

Tapping and Reading

This week, I've been more consistently tapping on weight/self-image issues.  Also managed to chant at my altar again.  Still not chanting daily, but I do feel a bit more connected to my spiritual practice.  My hope is that the positive benefits of meditation and chanting will also help my weight loss goals.  After all, the stress enzyme cortisol encourages weight gain…

Decided to draw some cards for the weekend, as we are having a party.  Silly, but it's been stressing me out, as I worry people won't have fun, that they'll be judgemental, and think how fat I look.  Which is ridiculous, as these are only our closest local friends, and I wouldn't judge any of them for having put on a bit of weight.  And realistically, at a party I mainly just enjoy the chance to catch up with people I don't see as often as I'd like, and hope they will feel the same.

Anyhow, drew a line of three from the Gilded Reverie Lenormand (U.S. Games, 2014): Garden, Book, Tower.


In this, I see that I have felt like hiding from society, yet I also feel isolated.  It speaks of people seeing our new home for the first time, too, and how I've felt nervous about that.  At the same time, it reminds me that this party is a chance to talk and share projects we are interested in, and to learn from each other.  As with everything in life, it will be what we make of it.  And so I return to mindset, and tapping to calm my fears, so I can enjoy time with my friends.

Even though I am anxious about this party, I love myself and accept these feelings :D

8 comments:

  1. What striking cards you've drawn for this question. it seems to me like the book is what connects the isolation to the party. Perhaps you shouldn't be an open book to everyone. Don't try to excuse yourself for you weight or the party itself just be who you are and let the guest read the pages one by one and I am sure they will love it

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    1. That's a lovely interpretation of the book, Ellen, thank you! It's funny, I think I was far less of an open book than I might normally be. And overall it went well, I think :)

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  2. I imagine instead of thinking how you look most folks will naturally be comparing themselves to you: "How could she have just moved AND just had a baby, and STILL look so good and have such a nice looking home?" :D
    Of course if you're really concerned, I'll be your bouncer at the party and give anyone a head-slap if they say anything out of line. :D

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    1. Tee hee, I don't think anyone earned a head-slap :D Thanks for the moral support, Sycamore. It was a good party, though one person did question my colour choices in decorating… ;)

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  3. Great idea about the tapping. I have some things I need to tap on, too. I've found myself feeling very cortisol-ridden and anxious, too. Our wellbeing is so important! I do hope you have a wonderful and relaxing party and a chance to show off your new home. Hey, can you e-mail me a few pics of your new home?! I would love that. Well, no pressure. XOXO

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    1. Thanks, MM, it was a pleasant party. And so good to catch-up a bit with friends! Good luck with tapping, I really am finding it helpful! It definitely helps calm things down a bit, which with an impending house hunt, you surely need… As for pics, not sure we've taken any *doh* I'm barely remember to take pics of the new little guy every couple of weeks, which I know I'd regret if I didn't do!!
      Big hugs,
      Kxxx

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  4. I often feel the same way before having friends over or meeting them somewhere. I worry about whether or not my house is clean, and I worry about how I look. Every single time, though, my fears are for not. I hope you can enjoy the party and have a fabulous time! Just soak in the love and company of people who are taking time out of their weekend just to be with you. That's pretty cool!

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    1. Oh yeah, we both spent ages tidying. Fortunately, my DH is even more of a neat-freak than I am, so I didn't have to do it alone. And I think we did a fairly good job of it. It's just, we still have a number of boxes from the move, as we're waiting on some bookshelves, and have had other stuff going on *doh*

      Still, I did enjoy the party, and as you say, it was good to spend time with people, some of whom had travelled to come see us! :)

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