This week, I've been more consistently tapping on weight/self-image issues. Also managed to chant at my altar again. Still not chanting daily, but I do feel a bit more connected to my spiritual practice. My hope is that the positive benefits of meditation and chanting will also help my weight loss goals. After all, the stress enzyme cortisol encourages weight gain…
Decided to draw some cards for the weekend, as we are having a party. Silly, but it's been stressing me out, as I worry people won't have fun, that they'll be judgemental, and think how fat I look. Which is ridiculous, as these are only our closest local friends, and I wouldn't judge any of them for having put on a bit of weight. And realistically, at a party I mainly just enjoy the chance to catch up with people I don't see as often as I'd like, and hope they will feel the same.
Anyhow, drew a line of three from the Gilded Reverie Lenormand (U.S. Games, 2014): Garden, Book, Tower.
In this, I see that I have felt like hiding from society, yet I also feel isolated. It speaks of people seeing our new home for the first time, too, and how I've felt nervous about that. At the same time, it reminds me that this party is a chance to talk and share projects we are interested in, and to learn from each other. As with everything in life, it will be what we make of it. And so I return to mindset, and tapping to calm my fears, so I can enjoy time with my friends.
Even though I am anxious about this party, I love myself and accept these feelings :D