Saturday, 20 September 2014

Free Will

Last night, I took my Conscious Spirit Oracle (U.S. Games, 2013) and popped the Integration card back in it.  Then, I riffle shuffled a few times, hand-over-hand shuffled a few times, fanned the cards, and picked one.  Yep, you guessed it: Integration again!

Clearly, either this is a message I still need, or I haven't understood it properly yet.  Perhaps, what it's speaking to is this second card, from Les Vampires (Blue Angel, 2014).  In order to be fully integrated, fully myself, perhaps I need a somewhat stronger sense of independence.  It's true I can be quite easily influenced by others, in some ways.  I don't feel I'm very good at interviewing people, for instance.  I tend to always see their good points, and understand their weaknesses.  Which is good as a counsellor, not so good if I'm supposed to make HR decisions.  Feeling someone must be good enough, if they've been picked and sent to me, is not exercising my own discernment.

So, I'll take any opportunities offered this weekend to stand up for myself, my beliefs, and what I feel is right...

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  1. That's just what happened to me with the Two of Cups! Too funny. The cards certainly speak to us often when we least expect it, and we think we're the one's in control.

    Discernment is so important to me, and I have had a long hard struggle to attain it. When you make bad character judgements, which thankfully I don't do like I did when I was younger; it can really undermine and shake the very foundations of your trust, faith and trust in your ability to make sound judgement in regards to people's behaviour and personality.

    What has worked for me is to share and then check to see responses, body language etc. Time is the biggest factor as this often is the best way to understand another. As well, I have to evaluate my own expectations to be sure they are not unrealistic.

    The most important lesson I have learned NP is that there is nothing that will drive you crazier than trying to get something from someone who either cannot or will not give you. Time to let go and walk the other way!

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    1. Yes, learning when to walk away definitely takes discernment! And I like what you say about listening to body language, rather than just mental impressions :)

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  2. The poet Samuel Johnson once said, "In sovereignty there are no gradations." Which is precisely why it is hard for me too! Some things feel too big, too important for me to make a final decision on. Yet if I think about it, everyone is responsible for their own selves too, which takes a bit of the pressure off. (At least that's what I'm telling myself, lol!)

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    1. Interesting quote, Bev. Like you say, it says that everyone is responsible for themselves. And that we just have to trust in our self - no one could be more sovereign than we are for our self. Good luck with taking the pressure off!

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  3. What an empowering card and reading! Now I am tempted to get this deck. I don't have any of this artist's decks. Hugs galore.

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    1. Well, you know I'm a huge fan of hers :) Still, I think we can get the message we need from whichever deck/s we have. So, save your pennies and enjoy the cards you already have!
      Hugsalot, Kerry xxx

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