Yet, it's true I'd asked for a focus for the day. And they say if we improve ourselves, that spreads out in ripples. So, today I shall work on feeling more integrated, more connected with spirit and my self. Which I really hope includes having a nap at some point!
Anyhow, I also decided to draw a little Lennie line, with the Mystical Lenormand (Königsfurt-Urania, 2004):
1) Tower (19) equals 20 - Garden - social isolation/public institution.
2) Man (28) equals 30 - Lily - harmonious rationality/peaceful man.
3) Scythe (10) equals 13 - Child - new way to cut/shock about a child.
I've been seeing lots of "traditional" style Lenormand readings on the German forums, and following that this would say that a peaceful man connected to a public institution will give me a shock about my child today. Which is quite possible as I'm expecting a call from our doctor, and while I hope he'll say we've got a referral to a clinic for my eldest later today, he could well say something quite different.
From a more empowering perspective I read this as my needing to look rationally yet peacefully at the social isolation I've been feeling around some issues with my younger son, so as to find a new way to cut through it. Getting het up about it, or making a leap without doing any research will not serve me well. It's nothing very serious, but at the moment the only way he sleeps is with me. Which rather crimps my being able to leave the house or do anything much. He's six months old now, and I want to foster some independence in him. However, having had such an unusual experience with my first child, I'm a bit at a loss as to what to do with a "normal" child. Ok, some research and perhaps finding someone appropriate to ask...