|Release: Transgression, Embrace: Thirst|
While I'm not sure I see it quite that way, it feels like a good time to think about what I should release in my life, and what to embrace. And I also decided to ask for a message from the ancestors. For all three, I drew cards from Les Vampires (Blue Angel, 2014), an appropriately dark deck ;)
At first glance, these cards to release, Transgression, and embrace, Thirst, seem confusingly similar: transgression and obsession. Looking deeper, though, I see the message to let go of mistakes I may have made, perceived flaws, and the feeling that I have done things wrong. There is no help in worrying over what is done, as I cannot go back to do it differently.
Instead, I should embrace my addictions and obsessions. That might seem like the road to further mistakes and regrets, but I think this means embracing with loving acceptance, rather than just giving into them.
This time of year can be full of challenges, with the overt materialism of Christmas shopping and the encouragement of overindulgence in food and drink which starts long before Christmas itself. Relapse is seen as a natural part of giving up bad habits. It is hard to be 'perfect' and far better to have a plan in place that allows for the occasional slip. So, while I have steered clear of chocolate, biscuits and cake for seven weeks now, I would do well to embrace the idea that the temptation of all those Christmas-themed goodies may lure me in. If I accept and plan for that, I'm less likely to think 'I've blown it now, so I may as well give up!', which is what happened to me at Christmas a few years ago after I'd given up on sweet things for eleven months!
I love the message from the ancestors: Hope. Though this may be a time of darkness and challenges, it is also a time to focus on the future, to light a candle to illuminate the dark. A time to believe that we don't have to repeat the same mistakes over and over if we can accept and forgive them, and plan a different way to respond to them...