Kuan Yin Oracle cards (Blue Angel, 2012) has come up for me three times in the last seven days. The book talks about healing, and about living according to feminine principles rather than getting caught up in having to do things the "traditional" Western way.
At first, I associated this to working in a more heart-centred way, as Little Red talked about in one of her recent posts. Then, yesterday, I associated it with my mother, undergoing her operation and needing some of that healing, and perhaps a feminine approach to recuperation - I sent her lots of pics of the baby, a reminder of some of the things she has to live for :D
Today, I was doing another of the hypnosis meditations in my favourite weight-loss package, and the exercise was about releasing fears, starting with your very first memory of fear. What came up for me were two different memories, both very early. In one, my mum went away on holiday, and I dreamed every night that she'd been eaten by a tiger or died of a swamp disease (okay, didn't really get that she had only gone to France, lol!) In the other, I went to visit some of my German relatives on my own, and was afraid of the shadows in the bedroom at my aunt's house overnight. I realised that both of these memories involved my mother not being there, perhaps unsurprising given she's currently in hospital. Although I know it's a fairly routine procedure, the fear of losing her is still there.
However, after the exercise to render the fears powerless, the last part of that meditation included going to a safe place and meeting an aspect of Spirit, learning from them, and absorbing their loving energy. And there I met the Yin Empress. She reminded me that Spirit is always with me, a loving, feminine presence, even if my mother is not there in the moment. It felt powerful and reassuring. So, not just a superficial stop-eating-so-much-junk message from this package, it has some real emotional depth!
I am grateful for my mother: her beautiful, loving presence; her wisdom; her sense of humour; her belief in intuition and divination; her work as a healer; her willingness to question and explore; her kindness.